Identity Crises: A Practice of Listening and Responding

Identity"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you;" (Jer. 1:5) God knew me! What does that mean? How does he know me? It seems incredibly powerful to think about the fact that God dreamed of what I would be like! The things I'd say and the things I'd do! To fathom that he even knew my faults!

The reality is I am still learning about myself and I don't fully know who I am in the course of life. That is what I really am about; I am journeying through life slowly learning more and more deeper, who I am. The realization being that if I really want to know who I am, I need to seek the one who created me as only he can fully know who I am.

Still, I can make some key notes in my characteristics...

  • I am a man. It seems silly to note but the reality is my sexual identity creates a defined role I have in existence. That role being not only individual but also in my community and society.
  • I am a husband. This of course creates a intrinsic reality that my character and identity not only shapes just who I am but also that of my wife too. Of course the reverse of that is also true in that she shapes who I am too.
  • I am intelligent. It's not meant to sound in any kind or arrogance but, God wants me to learn and as such learning is meant to be done not just in knowledge, but also in exercise. Intelligence is the willingness to take knowledge and process it into wisdom.
  • I am passionate and emotional. I cannot lie, I shed a few tears every once and a while when a good movie is on. Joking aside, I can be very passionate about the callings I have and the people who are a part of my life. I do not think I should separate my emotions from the decisions I make in life. Of course, I don't think my emotions are the sole elements I rely on for my decisions.

I could go on here with some other notes but this is a start.

I think it is interesting that God also said he "consecrated" me. In that way, my separated sense of self consciousness and self awareness was given by him. There is, in a sense, a piece of God inside of me as who I am. A finger print of sacred exists in a way. I am unique!

"I appointed you a prophet to the nations.” (Jer. 1:5)

There is a realization here that God created me with a purpose, a mission in mind. A prophet is one who not only hears from God but speaks with and for him. It is a vocational calling to which transcends my identity in everything I do and am. I have a deeper calling to listen to God and respond to him whether in actions or words.

That vocation however, is not separated from the appointment of that calling to which is the "nations". A nation is not necessarily a political country, but rather it can be a people group of affiliation or locality. In that sense, I realize that my identity is to listen and respond to God's presence in the midst of all the people who are around me in life. This means in work, at home, on the street, and anywhere I find myself at any given moment.

These are a few thoughts I have had while meditating through Jeremiah 1:4-19 as a start.